I believe you when you say you feel totally out of control, totally obsessed, and unable to stop yourself around certain foods. I may be skeptical about the idea of food addiction, but that’s not to say I don’t believe you’ve got some complicated food stuff going on.
But what if it’s not actually an addiction? What if there’s another explanation that is less about addiction and more about our relationship to food?
Even as a child, I wondered if the judgments people held about their own bodies was telling of how they saw my body. Remembering all the ways that years of diet talk made me think and feel dissatisfied about my own body, I knew it was time for me to set some boundaries.
What I didn’t realize then – and understand better now – is that when fat shaming my own body, and my body is smaller than someone else’s, I’m also shaming their body, even if that’s not my intention. Impact of actions almost always trumps intent.